Random mail

Hi stupid.. feels a little strange but absolutely stupendously marvellous writing to you like this.. smile.. so much of catching up to do.. but hey.. where do I start.. yeah yeah.. no time and all so gotta keep it short etc etc.. phew!! chill babes.. sometimes you just gotta sift through a whole lotta sand to find gold na.. :((.. and that's what OUR correspondence is gonna be in our lives.. always has been no.. 

so first your hubby.. hope he is doing really well.. gymming and all.. just tell him not to be so hard.. on the machines of course.. haha.. just kidding ya.. hope you are taking care of yourself alongwith him.. sounded kinda weary on the phone.. can't blame you.. remember how we used to talk through the night.. and sleep half the day.. bunking college.. office.. whatever.. totally whimsical.. and Your sis always scolding us.. groan.. about how tough life is gonna get for us.. and how we'd end up working our butts off.. theek hai baba.. you at work.. and home.. and me.. out here.. with that huge huge family.. and work.. and kids.. kids toh bas pata nahin if I can call them that anymore.. smile.. will ask them to send their pics to you.. 

what else can I tell you.. okay you write to me about your daily routine so I can picturize you there.. as for us.. get up real early in the morning as my son still has college.. he's in second year.. for kids it's mostly friends.. college.. work.. gym.. etc.. mealtimes are always together, like it used to be at your place.. have good friends around.. here too my neighbour has the same name as you.. can you imagine that.. know her now for the last maybe 22 years.. and hey I actually 'found' my school-time friend on facebook.. the one who used to live in Our city.... and guess where she has to end up living.. U.K!.. can you believe my luck.. all My close friends all share the same name and all have to live in U.K.. my neighbour too has all her relatives living there only.. spends every holiday there and they keep pushing her to shift.. wow.. 

now film gossip I can't really give you.. my daughter would have been great for this.. you ask in your next mail and I will make her reply.. smile.. send me some book or movie suggestions.. 

you write only when you feel up to it.. I know what you mean by hating to see another computer screen.. but hey.. do write.. because we are blessed enough to have some way of being a part of each other's life despite all this distance.. and we just can't let that go.. you take care of yourself.. 

lotsa love and hugs.. missing ya.. 

Hello bhabhi,

It was really great catching up after so long.. not that it felt like it's been so long.. a strange sense of 'familiarity' and 'comfort' was there:) something that happens with rare select people only.. our interaction fulfilling and what to say about Your son.. there is a very sweet engaging 'pull' in both Your kids.. that is so guileless.. and trusting.. and all I can say is.. hope you are able to reconcile the painful realizations that assail us on the path to ourselves.. and find peace within it's essential transience.. 

Hi babes.. it was a moving film freeze-framed just for me.. smile.. your description of your day.. so overwhelming to me personally.. melting distances.. into heartwarming conversations.. where you know you are heard..felt.. and understood.. 

and I don't want to be writer viter.. just to reach out to you.. aur vaise bhi.. letters parh le wahan tak to bahut hai.. novel parhne bola toh.. groan.. can't do that to you na.. smile.. Diwali was real hectic out here as usual.. sometimes I wonder about all these rules and customs.. if we are ruling them or they are ruling us.. smile.. remember our rebellion about everything.. and the song.. 'saare niyam torh do'.. when that minister (with his strict rulebook) and his family were putting up with us and we put this song so loud just to kinda 'drum it in'.. 

so anyways we have an early morning puja at office.. and then at home in the evening.. and again I wonder why we appoint pujaris for pujas to connect with 'God'.. the one and only Being who none can veil from.. and then we all laugh at that ad where 'saku bai' is going for aerobics on Madam's behalf.. smile.. crazy world hmm.. just the other day we were having our book club meet at Oxford.. and one lady who is into just about everything.. like manically she keeps pursuing one course after another.. and she says despite it all I feel I haven't achieved anything in life.. and I asked her.. what did Buddha achieve by just watching his own breath.. or any of the 'enlightened' masters.. achievement is so personal and unique to every Individual.. as per their life lesson and readiness for it.. and you should have seen her smile.. the book we were discussing was 'the last lecture'.. really good one.. upholding old-school values and beliefs.. with nuggets of advice for teachers.. parents.. and students all at the same time.. a dying man's effort to leave behind 'live' snippets for his children.. inputs that a Father would normally provide as a part of growing up.. 

so many times I wish you were here.. smile.. always could enjoy just about everything together.. chaahe phir woh tarot ho ya palmistry.. spirit calling ya astrology.. reading ya movies.. eating paan or paan paraag.. chilled drinks and naming ceremonies (lamp post, chashmish, muchharh, romeo etc etc etc).. smile.. kuchh bhi karte thhe.. the pleasure was in the company.. in it's purest guileless form.. 

love ya and take care.. 

Hey,

Am sorry about the late response as have not checked mail for more than a week i think. Good to hear from you after so long, even though its to share a tragic and unfortunate occurrence. People who say tragedy brings people closer, should add tragedy makes people write:) Sorry! sometimes humor gives us the much needed respite to face the myriad hues of a whimsical life. When someone close to us writes about a traumatic situation, we immediately become a part of it, and it no more remains simply a news item, to be shrugged off as an unfortunate incident. I could empathize with the fear, shock, awe and prayer in your words. Mother Nature in all her glory continues to humble our perceptions of invincibility.. For nothing stands in the way of her wrath.. I really hope and pray for the people in the midst of this devastation.. May God give them the strength to overcome their losses and rebuild a better future! Please take care.. And stay in touch.. 

Education

how are we educating our  children towards what destroying their childhood their natural awareness to things around.. making automatons out of the only fresh hope humanity has .. moulding them to set patterns we leave a legacy of robotic reaction increasing stress where life seems to have lost its meaning needing that fresh look like a lifeline we allow our children to see in this mad rush to capsule generations of knowledge in a few years.. 

Nature vs nurture

we all want children but are we ready to take their responsibility.. nurture  children -  our future.. their future.. Q ASk yourself.. why do we want kids.. 

because it is what everyone does

because they make us happy

because we need to love someone

because they carry on our name forward

because they are our future support.. 

What you wish for

you cannot harm another with your thoughts, you only harm you. It is so sad that all of us find it simpler to exclaim 'i love this or that' for inanimate objects or pets and various animals but for another human-being somehow related to you it feels awkward to say.

'be careful what you wish for, it just might come true'

when you know your 'destination' you will somehow always find the way, through a few wrong turns maybe, or asking for directions but you will always reach where you need to go, so 'talk'' yourself through to clarity  as to what exactly  you want or where you want to reach.

'gratitude' again relates to a 'happy' feeling.  it is only when we feel good about something, that we feel the need to express our gratitude. and showing it throughout the day translates into contentment and joy within an 'uplifting' that creates 'happy' ripples all around us and that definitely speaks of a 'great' day'

'ripple effect' - you frown and shout or snap at people around you and it reflects in their eyes and hearts and reactions to others and before you know it leaves a lot of people 'unhappy' all around. but if you smile and laugh and are pleasant you reflect a 'happy' feeling inside the people around you and their resultant reactions change accordingly..

visualisation - clarity and conviction

giving 'charity begins at home'

'you need to go for the inner joy, the inner peace, the inner vision first, and then all of the other things appear' it is our own 'conditioning' 'limiting' that works against us. all we need to do is REALLY BELIEVE in ourselves.

we have put boundaries around ourselves, our beliefs , really believing we are incapable of doing a lot of things, if we can shed those 'lines' bit by bit the possibilities become limitless and opportunities equal to any and all. 

'once you have made up your mind you can put things back together again'

choice  - we all have one. given any  situation it's our choices that determine the consequences of our actions, that determine each individuality and hence determine the future outcome of our lives..

we can choose to be happy or sad, pessimistic optimistic - whatever .. every feeling is a package of our  belief-system.. our minds are extremely powerful hence we are able to 'move mountains' so to speak, under hypnosis. then why can't we do it to ourselves. teach ourselves by controlling our thoughts and thought processes CONSCIOUSLY till it reaches an unconscious or natural level and becomes a way  of life.

(ironically) you only need identification to differentiate between twins

what is taliban saying.. is it defeating it's own message?

ambition - what it does and what it costs.. we need it so desperately sacrifice so much of value in ourselves and in our lives that when we fail there is no one left inside.. 

we all need that 'respite' that 'escape bubble' - the 'feel-good' factor. some do it with a movie, friends, music, a 'book' - for a mild mood-swing. while some extremes need drugs,  medicines, alcohol etc.. but we all need this from time to time in order to 'return' to face an uncomfortable moment or situation.. so everything eventually returns to our mind and it's resilience and how we DO find rough and simple methods to somehow regulate our thoughts enough to face the 'realities' of our life.

our 'thoughts' and 'feelings' do create a ripple-effect, to the extent that when we feel good and right about our life our minds are clear and happy enough to make the right choices and move in the right directions or 'look towards the sun' - unflinchingly. but when we don't feel good or are unhappy our reactions and choices somehow move in sync and this results in 'our thougts determining or creating our future as we know it'

though our circumstances are pre-determined our choices are always in our hands, if only we can rise above tthe 'conditioning' of 'limiting' ourselves through pre-conceived  notions and allow ourselves the freedom to give individualistic and true meaning to the selfish 'I' .

none of us want to be unhappy, depressed sad or poor.. but when  we get into those situations, we need to be aware of it, and steer ourselves away from these situations or feelings. wherever you are in life, inside or out.. reflects where you have been 'mentally' in the recent past.

what you focus on, is what you bring into your life, be it good or bad

Present moment

nothing changes the fact of the 'shared' moments or their beauty or the 'security' the 'smiles' each random thought brings.. we are so conditioned to look 'ahead' to 'weigh' everything against 'losses' and 'time', the 'future' that we nearly always end up losing out on the happiest moments of our lives.. a future that none can predict.. time? who knows.. a given moment is what we can be sure of and we gotta live it unshadowed.. 

Four blind men

the four blind men checking out the elephant.. we do see only as much as we want to.. the bigger picture somehow always escaping this 'cylindrical' vision we have conditioned ourselves into.. thus, the human race.. souls.. earth.. God.. all the scriptures.. beliefs.. values.. everything 'one'.. similar reflections.. only each sees differently.. 

Quest for Color

why is the color of our planet and missing - blue 

why is the color of money and jealousy - green

Why is the color of sunshine and monks - orange

Why is the color of Divinity and purity - white

Why every color needs to be experienced to fulfill life!

Unuttered protest

I want you to know i can feel the pain the disillusionment fear loneliness anger hurt and the unuttered protest. we all want to lash back at people when something unfair happens, and we would be pretty much justified too. we are all very special, each one a unique person, and nothing can change that fact. it is not always easy to forgive and forget but love and compassion give us the understanding we need to help us forgive our loved ones, because if we don't , something which is deep, an integral part of us also dies. in a way we are doing the very thing we felt hurt about and that is holding back our love or alienating our loved one and you know how much that hurts. life stinks sometimes, maybe more than sometimes, but since we can never change the past and we have such a limited time with us we must make a fantastic future.I know you don't want to talk about it any more but I had to let you know how I feel. I do understand and don't think there is any need to feel guilty about the anger either.. we're fully entitled to it.. some wounds never heal, they go in too deep and have hurt too badly. nothing can fill that kind of a void only understanding and the will to forgive and forget might help a bit of the healing not to say a lifetime of loving. you deserve to be loved unreservedly, you are a very special person.

Parenting

parenting needs to be an education not a surmise! 

honest praise is a great encouragement and incentive.. 

a powerful awakening to a constant gripe in grown-ups - but he/she doesn't really mean that sorry! 

Anger management is a people skill.. one we all need to learn.. 

Every Parent needs to have this talk with their child with this much ease and comfort.. hope this reaches as many people as possible.. 

An enlightening take on the connection between interactive energy and empathy.. this can be used in life skills too..

Rearing children is a responsibility not only towards them, but towards our own habits too.. 

Truly topical, needing an essential awareness and cosciousness at parental level first. Thanks, for sharing like this, and helping us create a better future.

So true.. it takes a phenomenal will to get past personal reserve and conditioned beliefs.. but the love of a child enmeshed with such essential awareness can definitely make it possible.. thanks for sharing.. and for helping build a positive and happier future. 

Right nurturing and the experiences of life determine our identities and future.. bless you for taking this elephantine task of breaking such conditioning.. maybe this triggers a new path whereby parenting classes become essential for new moms, instead of the natural culmination of parenthood. 

Love the name and concept both.. wish you all the best.. for this blessed work building self-healing lives.. 

Thinking Aloud Randomly

Believing our thoughts, words, actions and choices to be targeted at someone else, we Only realise later everything impacts our own conscience too.. Creating subtle ripples of unrealised rifts within our psyche...

We get so embroiled in our own little worlds making life simply to be an extension of 'ourselves'.. And standing there.. Right in the centre.. We always fail to see infinite similar orbs all around.. Like cogs of a wheel.. Only meant to Help each other move on.

Silence, not only in words but also in thoughts is important.. There is no sense being silent on the outside but inside burning and mentally abusing the world in general.. Silence means tranquility; verbally and from within.

We all have this room inside us so full of noise.. The noise of our constant thoughts racing around unheard.. And alone we sit in this room.. Always hidden frm the rest of the world

Why this disquiet this unease towards bonds that stretch thin.. Do we move on with the joy of its strength or its flimsy capacity to hold.. Does it really depend on anything but the moments shared enjoyed by itself.

The more i look for my inner self the more i get enmeshed in mundane trivia.. Scared so scared to seek.. That which i profess to need.. The mist thickens.. And time beckons with palpable anxiety.. And yet this wall.. Burdening that step into assumed unexplored futility.. All the words are there.. All the thoughts crowding.. Scattered.. Urgent masks manically furtive.. Hurriedly Pile one upon another.. Sinking buried within this mire of quicksand..

In all these faces that i needed to don.. Myriad lessons strung on scattered heartstrings.. Unlocking unchaining these related shackles.. Yet Stuck in a maze of replete stagnation checkered with anxious wait..

There was a time when friendship danced in our veins.. And the whole world smiled This is a time of strangeness.. Mundane secrets of life hiding.. Scared to disturb the images of innocence left behind..

touched by suffering.. These eyes Swim hiding glimpses of pain..

Meaning is not something we stumble over like a bolt of lightning in sudden enlightenment or by walking a certain path.. meaning is something we weave into our lives every step of the way each finding something unique and true for themselves. a universal truth that belongs to each heart.. Dawning at the apt moment.. A fitting time..

For peace and foresight.. Whatever the hurdles in life.. We hold infinite reserves inside.. Along with Myriad hands holding us up.. Every relationship flowers within its moments.. And Not merely by its name.. Leaving no winners or losers.. Just two differing belief systems.. And individuals..

Is Meditation like dusting away the collected cobwebs of our mind.. or watchful dodging of the 'mindfield' within.. or minding a garden by weeding out negative emotions.. or simply a walk.. not through a maze but hand-in-hand with a single thought!

People who say tragedy brings people closer, should add tragedy makes people write:) Sorry! sometimes humor gives us the much needed respite to face the myriad hues of a whimsical life. When someone close to us writes about a traumatic situation, we immediately become a part of it, and it no more remains simply a news item, to be shrugged off as an unfortunate incident. I could empathize with the fear, shock, awe and prayer in your words. Mother Nature in all her glory continues to humble our perceptions of invincibility.. For nothing stands in the way of her wrath.. I really hope and pray for the people in the midst of devastation.. May God give them the strength to overcome their losses and rebuild a better future!

Hi waiting for those words describing the one you want to write about:) meantime from what i remember- a unique confluence of fluid vibrancy cascading into quiet strength.. And the heart feels the whirlpool.. The silence.. The abandon.. The light.. In different stages capturing this synchronicity of manic abandon and settled peace..

How about 'soft strength'?

A tongue-in-cheek one can be 'unflappable wings':) A Freeheartedly impassioned precocious imp?

Most of us are angry at our loved ones.. but none able to care enough to help the change possible that we expect..

We hold a lot of grudges against people around us.. unaware of the 'destruction' we are wreaking within.. while the other moves on unaware.. carefree..

we make rules to make life easy for us.. and become their slaves instead..

If we have a disagreement about something.. we fight with the person.. and not his point-of-view..

how can we not rejoice.. how can we not be shamed.. by the seamless cohesion of a thought.. defying man's audacious boundaries..

Life's subtle nuances and fleeting tangencies determine the imprints of our tread.. that need simply to meld into the sand..

Every experience is unique to that moment.. determining the next step of our life.. though the way might be the same.. our perceptions define the range

we see..

In a recent fire, Two of our neighbours refused to abandon their in-laws, stoically watching everyone else vacate the building.. if history teaches by example why no one regales moments like these to the stigma attached to this relationship.. our lives are filled with moments like these.. that somehow get overshadowed by momentary grievances..

If through hypnotic regression we can return to any past life, does that mean our own mind is the author of our story.. making all these worlds 'real' for us, becoming both victim and judge.. until we learn to center it enough to truly 'live' a single moment..

Power of Prayer

We think we are doing everything in this world.. We think prayer does not help.. But prayers are powerful enough to help us see the way which otherwise we can’t even dream of seeing.. And the way its clarity helps us make the choices we need to make.. So even though we think we are doing everything but thoughts and actions come in our mind at the right moment that make us do so.. In Our lives which we think are in our hands, moments arise where we can’t believe we are doing certain things.. Things we were meant to do when the time was right.. Reach us through prayer.. And prayer too can take us unawares.. As a blessing from god.. When he feels we are ready.. The urge to pray just sets in without any question or melodrama.. As the most natural thing.. Even though we have never done it before in our life.. It is hard to recognise ourselves and the paths our lives take due to the choices we make.. because maybe there is no 'self' to begin with.. This itself should prevent us from judging others at all.. So just have faith.. Pray for strength and wisdom.. And like the lotus flower we will also be able to see our pre-destined potential revealed to us bit by bit.. Lets stop saying 'i' and realise and thank HIM for His blessings. 

What are we Empowering

Each time there is so much noise inside, i wonder why.. why is it so difficult to control.. Why am i so scared of this thought world and its reality.. Despite knowing it is momentary.. If everything is a projection of our thought world.. How are we putting the blame outside.. Every sensible resolution goes out of the window faced with the minutest disquiet.. Why this strong belief of holding the strings in our hands.. We pray but there is no trust in moments of stress.. To let go of things that are out of our control.. Its almost like worry and stress give us the feeling of doing something.. And only end up making things worse for ourselves and everyone around.. A single stressful situation seems essentially desperate.. We let ourselves drown in it.. Letting it completely overpower us.. And in the semblance of taking control, we completely lose our control over the situation and come out embarrassed, guilty, shameful, regretful and so on.. We are empowering the weakness, the negativity in our minds.. Forgetting this is just a situation, a very fleeting part of our life, we are unable to get out of that moment, believing it to be our life.. Defining it.. Blind to everything else.. No amount of understanding, intellect, wisdom, helping right then... And we look back in regret..

Speaking of Anger

Am sitting here suspended in the balcony.. for the touch of this breeze.. cool.. alluring.. beguiling.. and a little bit of sunshine.. touching.. kissing.. every pore.. every breath.. today i speak of anger.. why do we get angry.. firstly i think its because we are not in control of ourselves.. then of the situation.. mostly i see when we get angry its not really about the issue at hand.. but something else that is troubling us makes us lash out at something or someone innocent.. and we never resolve the matter because we never understand or try to know what was behind that fit of anger.. but every disquiet forms a chain of frustrations that we tie ourselves in tighter and tighter and it breaks in a spurt of screaming.. and show of strength.. we all try to control anger when we just need to let go of it..  

School Curriculum

There is a lot of stress on Education, but a truly positive necessity has translated into boredom, percentages and a mark of self worth. Education should be about fun, growth and responsibility. It should equip us to deal with adult life, holding the means to deal with it within ourselves. Instead Emotional and Financial stresses have become the norm, with education becoming all about degrees on paper, and necessary certification.

Holding the belief that change is the only constant, it is surprising that we do not venture to sort world issues addressing its roots, which is definitely improving the purview of our concept of education, constantly refreshing as per the needs of changing times.

I feel yoga and meditation, also gardening should be an integral part of our life, and inculcating this from a young age can help us be stronger, responsible and more secure Individuals.

Basic First-Aid and survival skills should also become a part of our Education.

Financial knowledge after 10th, as per market trading, investments and basic accounting are all necessary and practical tools of awareness one should have.

Growing our own food, whether having a herb garden or ornamental, helps us connect with Earth and Nature, helps us nurture and love, and helps our Environment hugely. Planting trees at school level, watching them grow, relating personally to the joy and value of feeling connected to our surroundings.

Life is stressing us out, and we have the tools and means to resolve this! Are we ready to take that step?

Churning up worlds

Let the state of your mind determine situations, not situations determine your state of mind. We strongly believe that constantly thinking about people and situations, exploring all our options in the infinitely possible scenarios, prepares us to deal with anything, Prevents any surprises, and strengthens our position. So our minds are constantly heavy, churning up worlds and stories to collectively crowd, color and confuse. What if we change this belief and choose instead not to dig so many thought roads, and keep a 'clear' head, leaving enough space to listen, understand and decide, energized with freshness and light. Treat the mind like your child, give it the attention and priority and guidance necessary. Nurturing its growth with constant attention and love.

Dear God

Dear God..Thank you for this beautiful life.. there were so many questions that needed answers but time seems to find its own answers and within its turning pages i have both grown and diminished.. maturity might bring understanding, but it also carries the essence of our perceptions and experiences.. determining our climb or fall over this mountain of lifetimes.. 

Corners of cosmos

Man has explored every corner of the cosmos, unaware of its existence within.. Like lord ganpati finding his world around his parents, while kartikeya goes all around it..

perceptions are strange things, giving words, meanings unheard, unfelt, unthought, the moment of experience creating fresh languages into our hearts, using those words to translate life.

And we write so many thought-stories incessantly.. spinning up emotional whirlpools, tornados of feelings that swamp.. that blur every path.. as we lose direction.. fumbling.. flailing.. looking to God for help.. instead of simply writing a different story.. for it is a fresh page.. and we are darkening it with reactive stories..

We love the colors of dawn and dusk.. we ignore them.. we love sunshine.. we curse a strong sun.. hide from it.. we love the day but draw blinds to shut it out.. and all along the sun remains the same.. contented in its identity.. its essence.. can we lead life like that.. taking reactions as momentary discomfort to the person, and nothing to do with us.. but are we not evolving too.. !?!

Moment-leaf

Could not write in the morning.. has been a strange day of firsts.. went for a movie alone.. had been wanting to do this for a long time now.. it was a lovely experience.. its a strange thing these experiences.. they are just unchanging incidents that eke out whatever emotion we are willing to assign to them.. each giving a different reaction.. a different response.. we let so much get to us.. when we can let things pass us by.. and then we blame the outside for creating this hell that we chose to enter.. if someone is mean to us.. it is their problem.. a problem that we want to adopt so possessively.. so many times i realise the wonders of responding to situations.. but these reactions water our ego till we see a moment-leaf shrivel and die.. what is so upsetting.. even when we know the truth about ourselves.. we jump to defend something that is not there.. and the hurt.. is it conditioning.. expectation.. or a belief system that constantly asks us to prove ourselves.. to declare our place in this world.. to defend our identity.. our identity is the biggest cosmic joke we are stuck in.. 

Adopting 'grand'ly

Got up late as its a work day and slept at 3.30 last night just thinking.. the need to start meditation is getting stronger and stronger but have not been able to find something or someone that resonates enough to last more than a couple of days.. 

I feel every flat.. every house should have tulsi plants outside their windows to help fight pollution in some way.. and have a ready medicinal herb for day-to-day intake.. 

Also i feel every woman should take out time for herself in the morning and sit in her balcony or terrace.. make a vitaminD club maybe in highrises.. where all the ladies come to their terrace with their morning drinks and just soak in the sun.. whether chatting.. reading.. exercising.. chanting.. whatever suits them.. but this must become part of the morning routine.. terrace and not gardens and only women because they can come in their nightwear.. or any casual wear and let the sun touch their hands and legs.. 

The third thing that i feel is really necessary is adopt a grandparent or grandchild.. with single unit families it is very difficult to have the right guidance or the pure connection that only a grandparent can give.. so any two neighbors can connect and bond over this.. let their child feel the sense of security and acceptance and love that age group can give.. similarly old people get so lonely and if a child takes out time to be with them.. talk to them.. it would work wonders with their health.. their loneliness.. and feeling of being needed.. 

The maze

Its really late and the house completely silent.. with the night lights on fire across the sea.. forming myriad colorful inroads into its heart.. seeking to catch their own reflections.. beautiful.. teasing.. radiant.. spoke to my nephew yday.. at the edge of a cliff.. ready to jump.. not in fear.. not in devastation.. but with sheer wondrous exhilaration of the unexpected.. of the gift of life.. of making sense of the seeming gibberish written so far.. a bold step.. at once tentative.. at once hopeful.. a step nevertheless.. we are so deeply embroiled in our lives.. every word .. every expression.. every thought so indelibly defining our moments that we have no time left to see the maze we are stuck in.. why are we roaming in this maze.. we are just not even trying to find a way out.. we have even forgotten this is a maze.. accepting it as our path we are passing our life and settling down there.. can we rise above the words.. can we hear our own music.. rapt.. beatific.. transfixed.. as the world passes by.. touched by the beauty within.. in trying to prove ourselves to others we fail ourselves miserably..