Could not write in the morning.. has been a strange day of firsts.. went for a movie alone.. had been wanting to do this for a long time now.. it was a lovely experience.. its a strange thing these experiences.. they are just unchanging incidents that eke out whatever emotion we are willing to assign to them.. each giving a different reaction.. a different response.. we let so much get to us.. when we can let things pass us by.. and then we blame the outside for creating this hell that we chose to enter.. if someone is mean to us.. it is their problem.. a problem that we want to adopt so possessively.. so many times i realise the wonders of responding to situations.. but these reactions water our ego till we see a moment-leaf shrivel and die.. what is so upsetting.. even when we know the truth about ourselves.. we jump to defend something that is not there.. and the hurt.. is it conditioning.. expectation.. or a belief system that constantly asks us to prove ourselves.. to declare our place in this world.. to defend our identity.. our identity is the biggest cosmic joke we are stuck in..
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