Unmatched soul

This crazy rush towards a beautiful mirage 

that beckons compellingly.. 

And that single step

That spellbound breath

At the mysterious beauty within..

Freeze- framed in a moment waiting to happen.. 

Looking vainly towards a self

Strange to its own reflection.. 

At once Sated yet parched.. 

Hoarding a sea of myriad hues 

that still seek elusively..

we all have this vacuum this void in us  a feeling of emptiness as if this isn't enough we go through our lives feeling something is missing none of us know it everythign seems so complete what a loss what a rarity.. none of us know it nor feel.. is it any wonder i feel blessed can't stop the thanking.. 

 

silence trembling in heartbeatss that breathe with hues of imagined spectres thoughts balking at images.. 

trust slips away so easily and we hurt and burn in our own hell.. as if our heart would break and the person remains the same.. only we 'see' differently... 

I want to be heard without saying a word

To make a difference like the air around

This silence is so full of noise

How do i hear my heart speak

Nature struggles to keep balance

Within its family

Till each finds its own

Can i feel her love can i feel his

Can i feel mine

For you for me for this whole family

Can we see the beauty unfolding all around..

Can we hear music in the rustle of leaves or birdsong..

Can we taste a single moment and enjoy its flavour..

Can we breathe the fresh fragrance of damp earth..

Can we feel the touch of life in every atom, every pore..

Can we celebrate the miracle, Of an unmatched soul..

A moment’s hush

Just a moment's hush

In this storm of thoughts

That never let's us feel...

Could we quiet

This raging din

Of mundane trivia

Drowning something

Precious

Even before we can feel...

Just a moment's hush

Is all we need

Could we allow ourselves

That luxury....

Rings of dust

He sees footprints moving away

As rooted he stands

Trying to get his bearings again

Dazed he looks back

Eyes parched

Drained of that last drop Of moisture

Blinking hard to register

How only one set was etched behind

In this yawning empty desert

Rings of dust undulated

Swirling around in vain

As if in a quest to decipher

What was lost, what gained......

Split personality

i look in the mirror and what do i see

same old body, same old face

with varying expressions maybe

we've all been told each Dr. Jekyll has his Mr. Hyde

we all have our Frankensteins

so, is there someone else inside

you would know because you always do

is the fondness so complete

or is there a wolf sometimes peering through

or more importantly.. does it matter

could anything ever really tear

this fabric spun so precious

no, the darker can never dare..

Oysters autobiography

'energy flows where attention goes'

'the pearl is the oysters autobiography'

I want to write, why do words fail me now, the cell phone seemingly mocking me lying there, almost gauging my wait, an unease, a restlessness within, the urge so intense, to turn towards the one person I look to in my time of need.. the missing becoming so impossible to handle at such moments

you're in each breath I take

on my skin and in my mind

molding each word and thought

compelling, rapturous and blind

now i know what it means to be really complete, it was just a word till i met you.. who was to know of the emptiness within till i was faced with the fulfilment of you.. my heart feels so full of love and gratitude for you.. i can actually feel the ache  in my throat and heart, it touches me so deeply.. will i ever be able to show you what you mean to me.. nothing comes even close to expressing the love and regard i hold for you, you who has given birth to  this wonderful feeling in my heart suffusing my  whole being, thus helping me touch the skies at one with God.. i  want to make you so happy do everything for you, you have taken me to paradise and shown me heaven in one lifetime.. how has it been so palpably felt all along, all around, a constant, close to my heart.. giving deep contentment

Numb shards

you are touched by many people as you move on in life.. only some leave an imprint forever.. a look a smile a thought even.. every nuance bringing them back.. a touch that just wouldn't let go.. in our foolishness the very people we want to run away from are the ones we miss the most.. always too late we realize how good they were for us.. 

this personal space

these islands we make of ourselves

we might drift together meet at shores  even

trying to decipher this Eden in my life

this oasis of thoughts captured for eternity

even its possibility might still be a mystery

maybe God felt I needed  his touch for a while

his smile in your voice his blessings in your Being

I need to thank Him for this beautiful respite..

This acute shattering 

Of a self that seems to

Splinter into numb shards

Buried deep so deep

In cocooned vacuum

That rare fleeting touch

Of oneness.. So palpable..

Like rays of sunshine dancing

Over the sea in shimmery slivers

Of aching fluid refracting self

What hurts more.. The ache

Or the limbo.. As Time jumps

Between pockets of urgency and lethargy..

Mocking the cognition of its passage

In an illusory life!

Words without form

The fragrance of unuttered words Hung in the air

Carried over the breeze

Entering Catching my breath

As i feel a whisper

Sighing words without form

Just feeling

And i look around Searching ineffectually

Like these dancing lights Reflected in the sea

Going deeper and deeper And deeper

Creating ripples of their own.. Shimmering sparkling

And forever leave their glow..Momentary ongoing eternal

All i needed.. Was a look within

Dance of shadows and light

Have you seen the moon Struggling up there With the clouds

So many are there.. Unendingly.. And yet..

Can you resist those fleeting glimpses Full of smiles..

Can you help falling in love..

Can you resist the pride and joy Reflected so pervasively,

As you bask in that ethereal glow..

Mesmerized.. Unable to contain.. To hold..

When the 'ache' merges shimmeringly in this

Dance of shadows and light..

As 'divinity' softly enters your heart

Bathed in a magical hush..

 

Yes the need is there to hold This 'tiny' miracle

That glows in your eyes.. That settles in your heart

That makes you forget Everything

As involuntarily you stretch Out your palm

As if to hold Something Beyond... Way beyond..

And it smiles reflectively

As you shake your head in wonder

As this irresistible bond

That pulls you despite.. All comprehension.......... 

Your gift to me

Each day this dawn

Ever-changing Fresh, beautiful

So picturesque

Taking my breath away

Reflected in that dawning smile

Dappling shades of you

Each time a new facet

Sparkling, shimmering

As i greet every day

With thoughts of you...

Helpless joy.. A heart so full

I see the clouds glowing

Each lined brightly

With the first light of dawn

And i think of a struggle

A soft sensitive heart

Valiantly trying To find that light

Enticingly withheld.. Painfully felt

Struggling to rise On a promise he made

To himself...

And as i stand here

I can feel this gift You gave me

In the glowing clouds.. In the joy in my soul

All a reflection Of your belief.. Your smile

Your gift to me

Pure sunshine

the one door in this corridor of life, 

She would have walked past 

and always missed out on.. 

suddenly he was there, 

gently holding her hand, 

as together they stepped 

into this wondrous new world. 

is this the ultimate one, to happiness, for the rest of their lives.. 

the one that leads to paradise.. 

why didn't She hesitate, 

what made her believe, 

as She trustingly held his hand 

and let him lead

would that haven ever be, 

enfolded in his arms, lost to world, worshipping him in every way.. 

eyes filling up with emotion, 

with the sanctity of 

this much awaited moment, 

as She melts within to touch his soul.. with heart so full of love and devotion, would any wonder compare to that, could any feeling be so complete. 

just a gesture or a prayer, 

wanting to cherish all of him.. 

a feeling of belonging, 

such an expression of oneness, 

so lost in him with no self at all .. 

just him that matters, 

as She trustingly surrenders herself 

to his loving care. 

would he pick her up 

with a gentleness so palpably felt, almost her undoing, 

as he show her, 

her rightful place..

such a feeling of coming home 

it would be 

as he kisses away her tears, 

unspoken emotion warring in his eyes, overwhelming both with it's intensity. could She resist the need in his eyes, 

as She felt him tremble in her arms, 

that racing heart so loud in her ears. what would It be to kiss his palm, 

His eyes closed in ecstasy, 

teasing that expectant mouth 

those lips just waiting for her....

Message of Dawn

Pensive moments

Captured  in heart Full of hurting memories

That vacuum that darkness Choked me so

In that one momentary glimpse Within your smile

What is this burden Drenched in pain

That begs to be eased.. Needs to be shared

What misery shuts everyone out

For which mishap Do you flog yourself

Why vacant eyes devoid of hope

Question in surprise That unthinking smile

Why innocent wishes These simple dreams 

Seem unreal, chimeric

Haven't you paid enough to life

It waits for you with so many gifts

So many smiles it owes to you

If only you'd reach past that mist

And allow yourself to move on

The cleansing is real can't you see

These darkest moments holding you

Hide within - a message of dawn....

Torn asunder

that one calling with no place to reach.. that one wisp of heaven in a mortal sky.. that one practice with nothing to preach.. that one love will it pass  you by? that one sliver of sunshine that one drop of rain that single pierce of pleasure that never ceases to pain.. is this the one we wonder is this the dream alive.. will we be torn asunder or suspended in between.. 

sitting here amidst these lights and the night sky flying free and high.. i think of you and your song.. as i smile knowing in my heart of the heights you're about to achieve.. 

all the visions i see realized.. nearing a zenith from where you alight  for as the horizons widen and your heart takes flight you have to shed each burden weighing you down inside.. 

this is what i feel.. even if we never share these memories with another.. we cherish them always.... to ourselves.. for they hold us and the person we are now.. strengthening, settling our lives as only love can.. because this is true and real and nothing can take away these memories.. but they will help us face life with a smile for we know we can never be alone when life gives us precious moments we should embrace them openly instead of worrying over them for before you know they might be over too.. 

that wayward tear as you spoke of  going away.. as true as the heart wishing you follow your dream..

silence trembling in heartbeats that breathe with hues of imagined  specters thoughts balking at images.. 

trust slips away so easily and we hurt and burn in our own  hell.. as if our heart would break and the person remains the same.. only we 'see' differently... 

living by rules and regulations robotic emotions conditioned channelized into cylindrical paths.. we cage ourselves even as we fight for animal rights.. instincts long suppressed..

Past lives

past lives or relationships.. do we have the insight to recognize as our subconscious naturally drifts towards another a bond of maybe lifetimes pulling the strings of our life today.. is this life an adventure a mystery yet to be solved.. as we unravel it one by one in each lifetime.. like  a costume party where you feel the person try to recognize and look beyond the masks.. 

that first look who was to know i was opening the door to meeting myself.. a quest i didn't even need reaching places and depths finding aspects of my nature so completely strange to me.. 

i wanted to be blessed just once with this feeling every bit as wonderful maybe more.. i touched the skies felt God unrestrained joy forgetting of self.. it was true it was real.. it's a mirage.. never to be.. 

Reach out

She wanted to reach out 

and heal any pain ever felt by him 

could only imagine 

and it hurt 

to feel the trauma 

of a son all alone 

Not knowing what made his hurt 

sting her eyes 

She could only feel deep respect and pride.. 

wishing she could've been there

for him each time he felt insecure or low.. Maybe momentarily.. 

wishing he knew this with deep conviction.. she was there forever for him.. and her.. concerned helpless.. yet wishing for him.. his dreams..  

silent always with quiet conviction fierce faith and pride an intense bond that makes her wonder yet rejoice.. 

Divine glow

a blessing.. a gift.. a wish maybe echoed in dreams 

unthinking unknown... 

elevated.. suffused in the divine glow amidst the sounds of serenity that God bestowed on me 

in the form of this smile 

and i felt it as the purity of this feeling.. 

These words right beside my own 

the only material thing perhaps 

so essentially shared 

and mean so much 

a rapport none could gauge 

a bond precious cherished simply felt.. a hand always there each moment the other is low.. 

supportive, steady, firm.. natural.. 

the melodious hush woven into words that makes your heart stop yet beat breathing music of life and true empathy..  

an expression of shared affection so deeply felt no eyes will ever see nor hands ever hold.. thoughts that can't be shared nor ever understood.. what can i gift to you who gave me such a special gift.. of your hand.. this is just a simple  sharing.. 

your gestures are so special they overwhelm me with their simplicity.. thank you