Unflustered

June12,2013

Today WEDNESDAY, got up real early and greeted embraced the dawn ineffectually.. Mornings are so beautiful these days and everyday i feel my eye sight is so limited.. Like there is so much to take in and am simply not equipped to do so.. But the bird sounds are so distinctively clear and mesmeric.. Can distinguish between the crows and sparrows and parrots and mynahs too.. Was reading in the inferno how venice because they have no traffic sounds the birds can be heard so clearly and beautifully.. Weather is still awesome.. the sun barely coming out in the past few days.. Has started to drizzle again.. the sea a dark grey and clouds heavy.. Bursting almost.. Its pouring now.. They just could not hold on any more.. Can here the soft pitter patter of the rain with intermittent sounds coming in waves of downpour.. A strong cool breeze playing with raindrops.. Swinging them around in glee.. An aural feast i realize as i close my eyes today.. Evening had a kahwa and sat in the window with my daughter for some time.. It was beautiful outside.. the parrots racing each other with loud screams of glee.. Birds literally gliding over the cool breeze rejoicing in the weather too.. the sea was at once calm and choppy.. Waves rocking the fishing boats to and fro.. Beautiful ripples forming over the calm sea.. In unique synchronic designs.. Those were real uplifting and heady moments neither wanted to end.. Am reading the reluctant fundamentalist.. Seems like there is so much to do and so little time to do it.. G keeps wondering how i appear so calm and unflustered.. I dont know if thats the truth or facade myself.. Keep trying to fight the urge to hurry or worry or despair.. Knowing somewhere deep down everything will work out as we have wanted it to.. and no amount of fretting can change that.. Keep trying to enjoy the journey instead of focusing only on the destination.. Need to listen to music more.. Sing more.. Dance my body seems to have a rhythm n beat all its own and every pore responds to it confounding me completely as to following any steps:) i love to dance.. and i love to sing.. and laugh.. I could laugh for no reason at all.. What happens as we grow older.. Does the inner music fade.. For our heartbeats desperately need those steady notes.. To keep the tempo right.. In sync with the rhythm and the melody nature strings for us.. So our souls can dance to a perpetual high.. Enough to lose ourselves.. Enough to transcend.. Enough to find ourselves.. Enough to be.. One.. With the cosmos.. With divinity.. With one and all.. S came to wish goodnight and make sure i was okay.. and though i was writing.. I really am trying to give up whatever i am doing in such moments and be exclusively there for my kids.. 

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