Unravelling

Sept23,2016

This unraveling has to stop.. And no one else can do it except me.. I see and hear a stranger.. I feel like one too.. denying portions of myself.. listless.. Soulless.. Aimless.. grieving.. Where and what has shifted inside.. What am i not able to understand.. If i protest my life.. Then why am i making it worse.. The only person that needs changing is myself.. I am meant to change situations, not let situations change me.. Be happy, as a natural state of mind.. What is the worst that can happen, that wasn't meant to be.. Each time we fall sick we readily take a pill, an injection, a surgical procedure.. Because we know they are meant towards a cure.. Why cant we accept the difficulties of life in the same way.. I love my kids and i need to give them the assured security and trust of control.. A faith that everything will be ok.. More and more the strangeness creeps in.. A shadow that makes my words fade away bit by bit.. And i want to speak.. To write.. The story in my soul.. Visibly sifting through a handful of letters.. Unaware of the lyrics melting into the silence of rhythmic poetry.. Unseen.. Unheard.. Unformed.. But there.. Waiting to be touched.. Waiting to be felt.. Waiting to be transformed once again.. 

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