Kaleidoscope of friendship

looking at the inner world 

the soul 

that is where god is rest all........ 

illusive mirage.. 

when you delve inside to find the goodness within, 

understand yourself 

your heart.. 

the ecstasy and joy of that 

makes you love all of creation 

which is taken as love 

of divinity of God.. 

don't ignore lifes miracles 

because yes, they might happen each moment but that moment never comes back.. 

that  reaching out in a moment of distress.. where everything is falling apart around you 

and you just need to feel that presence 

by your side 

which is so strengthening by itself.. 

it's rare when someone touches your life 

and you feel that warmth 

that beauty always.. 

like reaching the skies, 

soaring on wings of purity.. 

belief.. faith and trust .. 

an absolute belonging 

of really making a place 

in someones  heart.. 

some strength of character 
an uprightness and honest pride 
she spotted a long time back 
making it impossible to let go, 
after knowing a genuine human being.. 

there are crowds of people around maybe 
but possibly just one you feel able to turn to with the assurance of them always being there, willing and true.. 
maybe he wondered at them or her 
for caring so much, 
or even questioned it constantly .. 
but looking around honestly 
Could he see all that many poeple who cared, really cared from within, 
To cherish them always 
To understand 

'cause that is what she saw in him 

and would always cherish his presence.. 

It meant a lot to her and she cared deeply 

about him.. 

what could she give 

except this utmost wish 

of making him feel as special as he was 

and help him welcome each dawn with a smile.. going through his day with carefree laughter relaxing into a peaceful smile 

as he slept innocently.. 

always with that strength in his soul.. 

His very being.. 

which only pure faith of another can bring.. 

this was her gratitude to him, for him.. 

wrapped in words.. 

her eyes and heart always blessing 

for the wonderful person he was.. 

a genuine soul, he helped her meet.... 

She wanted to say how proud she felt 

of him, his inner strength and conviction,

His upright attitude.. 

a self made man who made himself 

self sufficient 

only because he saw the need in others greater.. she saw him standing alone for so long now finding that inner strength only within himself.. an exceptional person 

focused in what he wants 

and where he's heading 

yet always there like a rock 

for everyone to lean on.. 

she knew it isnt easy at all 

human, like each one of us 

which maybe people around 

tend to forget.. 

but she saw him come out 

winning all those inner struggles 

within himself 

maybe sometimes 

at personal painful cost 

because he set himself certain norms 

where anything less 

would be a sign of weakness 

something he had no room 

or place for in his life.. 

His own harshest judge 

and this is what she wanted to say.. 

Seeing those great struggles 

and deep trauma 

right from when he himself needed 

someone to lean on.. hold him.. 

their hand on his head.. 

all throughout he steadily moved on 

and came out a winner 

because most importantly 

His heart was still in the right place.. 

whatever the provocation, 

whatever injustice, 

however unfair or unpardonable 

just always find it in yourself to forgive 

She urged

because when we don't 

somewhere.. somehow.. 

something hardens within us too.. 

just let nothing spoil that inner beauty 

that is so much a part of you, your strength.. don't give up or lose out on 

that mischievous yet innocent child inside.. 

yet never lose sight of your dreams too .. 

work towards them side by side..

alongwith the strength of your convictions 

and the grit and tenacity 

to make your dreams come true.. 

She knew not why this urgency to reassure

Repeatedly.. essentially

Her care her worries to him.. 

to Not lose touch with himself, 

Despite all the hard work

learn to unwind and relax, 

Instead of playing havoc with his health .. 

Despite all the balance in everything he did, 

his well-being very close to her heart 

and knowing him, he could never hurt her.. 

so please please take good care of yourself.. 

she urged

He’d been there for her always throughout something that had never happened before.. helped her through 

the most difficult moments of her life.. 

seen her as no one ever had.. 

She could never let go of that hand 

whatever happened, 

a friend for life.. 

the conversations weren't important 

though the knowledge of his well-being was.. 

an open door always for him, 

To come and go as he pleased.. 

She told him before and this is all she asked, when low ,To find her in that smile on his lips.. when depressed as the hope in his eyes.. 

to let her be that hug when he needed someone.. 

or the lap like a safe haven.. 

feel her as the hands soothing his brow 

each time his head ached.. 

the joy as he played

the contentment in his heart.. 

just to let her be the presence always there 

each time he needed someone.. 

one who's thoughts clears up the dark clouds 

in the lightening of his heart.. 

makes the sun come out 

as the smile on his lips.. 

an imprint on his hand 

so strong 

of someone always by his side.. 

could he ever be lonely again.. 

how could he ever moon around.. 

she wanly thought, 

'cause the moon's always gonna 

remind him of her.. 

when you feel happiness 

don't treat it as chains on your feet 

holding you back.. 

feel it as wings 

which help you soar high 

and fly free.. 

only then would the culmination 

of your dreams 

be complete.. 

She refused to back off or hesitate, 

speaking straight from the heart 

He was her friend, 

she could not see him hurting 

or in pain 

or letting his health suffer like this.. 

desperately needing a smile 

would someone please oblige.. 

she said, perhaps hopefully.. 

a real champ..  

for that smile makes her so happy.. 

as she wrote the letter 

she felt both tears in her eyes 

and joy in her heart 

vying with a fiercely deep affection inside 

for the outstanding man 

who is so complete.. 

with a playful smile and warm eyes..

writing compulsively 

but words are all she had 

to let him know 

what a special person he was .. 

how precious and cherished their friendship.. 

the only way to express her appreciation 

and gratitude to him.. for him.. 

knowing whatever she wrote 

Wasn't something he didn't already know 

but that concern and affection 

does need expression.. 

hating to see him like this, 

taking his health so lightly, 

giving himself a back seat 

in his list of priorities.. 

wished she could shake him into realising 

what he was doing to himself

and maybe this is what her words 

were trying to do.. 

you can't reach that zenith feeling empty 

so please accept and relish  

each happy moment 

take time out to enjoy it too, 

it will only keep you healthy 

and help you move on 

with a contented happy heart.. 

you have to be okay 

for so many people i know 

but you just HAVE to be okay 

for me.. she wrote….

Not wanting anything from their bonding, 

Except the assurance of his well-being.. 

how does simple concern 

make him point out her priorities 

and focus.. 

maybe over-reacting 

but for far too long she was used to 

looking out for herself 

and always knowing what she was doing.. 

it's somehow always painful 

to be reminded repeatedly.. 

used to being naturally trusted 

hurt each time he questioned her.. 

adulating their friendship 

it simply can't be touched.. 

when she spoke of risk 

It in no way concerned her.. 

each time she meant him personally 

shutting everyone out 

maybe from fear of hurt 

shy of letting people in

leading to voluntary loneliness 

and she felt it's just not right 

for a person like him 

who is so fun loving 

and so full of warmth and love.. 

it's so damn unfair and 

this he did to himself personally.. 

grudging his smiles.. tough on himself.. 

Her last lecture to him hopefully

Trying to keep her mouth shut 

Asking him to relax.. 

Watching him clench and unclench

His hands now..

dealing with maybe thousands of people at work.. 

leading a happy life, 

following upon his friendships 

all exclusive to each other 

and even perfectly 

and she cant even declare concern 

for a valued precious friend without it overshadowing her priorities..

people who know and recognise loneliness, 

feel it intensely even in crowds, 

who's soul misses out 

on the depth they are capable of 

where all else would seem shallow 

would know the true value of that touch, 

it's fragile rare and 

to be cherished your whole life through..  

He might question her regard 

but the assurance of being a special person 

this is what she would  like him to feel 

every moment 

really special and deeply cared for..

needing him to feel 

someone is always there for him .. 

He felt someone reaching out 

a long time back.. 

something he couldn't refuse 

and never can.. 

what to do.. 

as someone so engagingly says.. 

was born that way only.. 

once he let her touch his life 

She became a part of it.. 

no backing off 

no second thoughts 

nothing.. 

come what may.. 

it was so right from when he accepted her 

Into his life

how can it be any different now.. 

it must be a very sad and lonely place 

where he kept himself shut away.. 

hopefully safe and immune from hurt.. 

all along her heart only blessed him, 

it hurt to know 

he might have  misunderstood.. 

respecting and empathizing 

with his need to step away.. 

please don’t bother to question or deny it.. 

she cried

this warmth is for that friend of mine, 

whom i do miss 

yes he is engaging and warm honest 

and childlike  

hope he feels it each time he is in need of it.. 

you i know can take care of yourself 

and yes i'm proud of you.. 

just don't ever lose out on your children

maybe it leaves you open to a bit of hurt 

but it'll always help you keep 

in touch with life..