Flow of time

We stare at this frozen drop 

of relentless years - 

Waiting for it to thaw,

To drench,

To slake.

We wonder at the frenzied rush,

throwing moments away,

waiting 

for that one glimpse,

of melting - 

the suspended dream.

We Watch it Spill into our life 

like a blessing,

held gently in the hands of time,

waiting

for us to believe,

to not give up,

to be ready-

to receive.

9 April ‘22

I am grateful to Ma for her Prasad and helping the quietening of the mind. 

To H for not insisting for something

To the trees for showering flowers on us, for creating carpets of varying hues snd fragrances, uplifting, loving, beautiful.

To all S’s friends for making me laugh so much, for sharing their happy moments so easily and openly. 

8 April ‘22

I am grateful to be there for a friend in time of need

I am grateful for shared family conversations

I am grateful to Ma for showing me the way

I am grateful for every smile a stranger shares on my walks

I am grateful for the glimpse of a fresh dawn everyday

I am grateful to the need to educate myself every moment, to the ability and enthusiasm for an exciting take on life, thinking, doing, something different, or the same differently

I am grateful for the ability to find beauty even in the everyday mundane things, and share the same with a conviction that creates ripples of wonder, positivity and conviction.

7 April ‘22

I am grateful to Ma for this Life

I am grateful to the pigeons, for making my heart soar in joy and wonder each time they take flight in hundreds together, amidst a deafening sound of winged rolling drums, to a dance of free moves in sync with each other’s heartbeats.

I am grateful to M for all her help in the kitchen and my coffee and food. For being such a wonderful daughter, taking care of Her Dad like a Mother. 

I am grateful to the sun for rising in stupendous flashes of bright and muted colours, unmatched, a painting we all draw afresh in our hearts, turning into unique Artists ourselves. 

I am grateful to S for filling every walk with words of companionship, love, laughter and security.

I am grateful to the Entertainment Industry for putting in so much hard work, creating animated stories meant to weave into our own lives uniquely.

6 April ‘22

I am grateful to Ma for always being there for me, for the best conversations i have ever had, for not judging, criticising nor blaming, giving only pure love and light.

I am grateful to M for the coffee and food, everyday helping me break fast, enabling my heart to smile in her.

I am grateful to S for our morning walks, for making me laugh so much, for indulging all my wishes, from clicks to pigeons to sea gulls to trees to lamp posts to sea to sunrise to boats to lighthouses to cows.. everything.

I am grateful to the Cows, for letting me feed them, for giving so much back to us, for being the sacred healing being, who harms none, despite the size, and just gives, all of itself.

I am grateful to google for giving all my thoughts and words space and home.

5 April ‘22

I am grateful to headset for curing my headaches so fast

I am grateful to the pigeons for giving me a reason to smile everyday, my heart soaring each time they take flight, beating joyously to the flap of their wings.

I am grateful to S for the morning walk full of laughter, rumination, teasing, and shared companionship.

I am grateful to the Cows for making me so happy as they spear out their tongue to take food from my hand, looking on with wisened doe eyes, fulfilling my heart each time.

I am grateful to M for the coffee and food and company, making me so proud every moment every day.

I am grateful to our friends for gifting another Buddha to bless our home

I am grateful to Ma, for her love, the puja, letting us breathe in her, breathing in each one of us.

I am grateful to the view from my window, filling the entire day with hues of changing light that uplift and compel.

I am grateful to the Sun for painting unique Dawns, hushing my heart into rapt attention, tip toeing with its quiet steps. 

4 April ‘22

I am grateful to Ma for giving me the ability to write and give expression to all my experiences within and without

I am grateful to Ma for listening to me with love and forgiveness

I am grateful to my kids for the joy they instil in my heart every moment, making me laugh, doing little heart stopping things for me, giving life fresh meaning everyday.

I am grateful to H for cooking dinner, despite coming home from a long day at work. 

I am grateful to google for creating the wonderful mail facility, and enabling blogging, giving writers a home without any space constraint. 

I am grateful to Ma for the food on our table and roof over our heads.

I am grateful for every drop of water that i drink.

I am grateful for the blessings every fresh day brings. 

3 April ‘22

I am grateful to Ma for guiding me positively throughout the day.

I am grateful to my children for always looking out for me. 

I am grateful to the Universe for enabling us enough to give back in some way.

I am grateful to the parrots for making me so happy, eating at our house everyday. 

2. April ‘22

Am grateful to Ma for holding my hand

Am grateful to M for making my coffee and cooking food for my fast, for taking over the household chores because of the fast, and letting me sleep early. 

Am grateful to S for switching on the ac, readying my room for puja

Am grateful to h for making sure my coffee was fresh and made on time.

Am grateful to all our help around us for making our lives easier

Am grateful to the entertainment industry for taking us into different realities

Am grateful to my breath, my body, my health. 

1 April ‘22

I am grateful to S for getting up so early everyday, for walking with me, at my pace, making me laugh, indulging all my idiosyncrasies, shopping with me.

I am grateful to h for coffee n toast every morning, for helping me with cooking, for feeding me with such love.

Am grateful to M for silently being there for me, sharing all the things we love, for working so hard, fulfilling all my dreams, making me so proud

Am grateful to mother Nature for all her beauty and love.

Am grateful to Ma for always being with me. 

31 march ‘22

Am grateful today for h making sabzi for me, for coffee n toast every morning. 

For s configuring music on alexa and switching on ac

For m managing tea n dinner for me n making coffee in the night for me

For Ma listening to me n blessing me

For my complete mail retrieval

For the concern n love of all three for me.. for S’s hugs like i am his world

Both shall pass

In one moment life is beautiful

Enjoy that moment

In one moment life is ugly

Brave that moment

Neither are here to stay

Both shall pass

Meant to be the viewer

Watching everything

Like slides in a movie

We act, direct, produce and write

The whole script instead

Who am i

How are you better than anyone

How are you lesser than anyone

Each is still asking the question

‘Who am i’

How do we know

Who anyone is

A part of something

Apart from something

Meditation

To the mantra of i am love, i am peace, i sat for 10 mins, at one with myself. The mind kept wandering, jumping, and i wonder why. Even though i was sitting in meditation, even though i was affirming silently, even though my breathing was deep and steady, my mind wandered till i ‘noticed’ and brought it back. Does this show our awareness levels are so weak, or we have conditioned ourselves to look for excitement, or we have made our minds to be worriers, or we are so disconnected from our lives, that we are never fully present to a single moment of it. 

Life in moments

Today i saw a little boy crapping on a pile of garbage, his shorts in his hands. Looking all  around, he picked some rag or piece of paper from the rubbish to wipe his butt, felt with his finger for any left over dirt, wiped it on his shirt, and earnestly wore his shorts once again. Only for a moment, aware of the traffic sounds and bustling crowds, he nonchalantly moved with sure, steady steps, for something to play in the same heap. 

Life laughed in that moment, at each and everyone’s absurd notion of controlling it in any way. A false belief that ensures our environment adapts around the self, when the self has no control even over itself, let alone anything else.