Primitivity within

to know you fully
not just body but mind heart and soul
to touch the real person behind all
these unnecessary masks we put on
favoring each relationship
facades more acceptable
because of welcomed urbanity
so scared to unleash or accept
the primitivity within
i wish to live in that portion 
of yourself which no one has ever touched before.. loving all of you.. just the way you are.

Forgive and forget

i want you to know i can feel the pain the disillusionment fear loneliness anger hurt and the unuttered protest. we all want to lash back at people when something unfair happens, and we would be pretty much justified too. we are all very special, each one a unique person, and nothin can change that fact. it is not always easy to forgive and forget but love and compassion give us the understanding we need to help us forgive our loved ones, because if we don't , something which is deep, an integral part of us also dies. in a way we are doing the very thing we felt hurt about and that is holding back our love or alienating our loved one and you know how much that hurts. life stinks sometimes, maybe more than sometimes, but since we can never change the past and we have such a limited time with us we must make a fantastic future.I know you don't want to talk about it any more but I had to let you know how I feel. I do understand and don't think there is any need to feel guilty about the anger either.. we're fully entitled to it.. some wounds never heal, they go in too deep and have hurt too badly. nothing can fill that kind of a void only understanding and the will to forgive and forget might help a bit of the healing not to say a lifetime of loving. you deserve to be loved unreservedly, you are a very special person.

Meaning

meaning is not something we stumble over like a bolt of lightning in sudden enlightenment or by walking a certain path.. meaning is something we weave into our lives every step of the way each finding something unique and true for themselves. a universal truth that belongs to each heart in as special and unique manner as each individual himself is..

Shards of confusion

sanity splinters into shards of confusion
as the self and resolve disintegrate
clusters of groups i see
in an ever-widening circle
of numbed serenity
ingratiatingly digging their own space
waiting in blinkered supine ecstasy
for a handful of earth
stepping into this maze 

we try to find the right path
till tired zombie-like we sit and wait

Lips of eternity

the only way to feel God 
is to love another blindly unconditionally 
totally forgetting yourself.. 
lost in the god  in another 
feeling your own merge 
in this divine union 
that fills you with aching joy 
as you reach within and touch Him soaring on wings of freedom 
the music of heartbeats 
of life itself resounding the silences.. with rippling strains 
on lips of eternity.. 

Ever-changing worlds

The hills joined by undefined cities suspended far over the horizon

Puffs of clouds shining in their moment of light till the breeze cajoles a new face

Who is this architect, this painter, 

this musician in the sky.. 

Constructing ever-changing worlds with a palette of infinite colours stringing notes of love every moment

Cottony patterns

It is So beautiful outside.. 

The flowers vibrant splashes of color that light up.. 

Uplift my heart each time.. 

The breeze romancing my skin.. 

The sea beckoning with its vast embrace.. 

the birds incessantly frolicking 

making teasing sounds of incomprehensive mirth.. 

and the sky.. blue so blue.. 

dazzling with muted light 

as clouds form cottony patterns 

of constantly changing designs.. 

and i smile eyes vying wih my heart 

to imbibe this ethereal gift 

nature bestows afresh..

Transcience

every moment i can feel 

the door ajar.. 

a tentative step, 

hesitant scared.. 

this transience.. 

i shut my eyes 

to feel consumed 

with the flame of love..

Toeing the line

thinking of a lifetime ahead of us we worry over situations and the future.. giving up on these few precious moments of happiness, that might be all we have.. if we could just put everything in 'ourselves'.. into each heartbeat, where would the room for any regrets be.. and make our  loved ones feel so special, each moment, just like the feeling in our hearts, instead of making occasions, priority lists and toeing the line..

Express it

the love is there.. mostly always.. sometimes we just need a difficult situation to realize.. that people we thought all our lives didn't care.. just didn't know how to express it..

Immune

this isn't about time or expectations.. 

a gesture, a thought is all it takes

And he wondered how ..

how is it possible 

to be so completely immune

in the face of utter love..

He tries to find the poetry in his soul

He tries to look into this mirror.. 

He gave her his heart but

She took his soul away...

Numbed your soul

and life teaches you so many things.. and you forget who you are.. 
so many steps to follow.. 
you forget there is one of your own 
and you know you meant something.. and you feel the disquiet all along 
the search doesn't end 
for you only look to follow.. 
yes, there is a meaning.. 
the search comes too late.. 
these bonds, this money, these worries
stop making any sense 
a sheer waste of you, yourself.. 
you question where you numbed your soul 
stopped feeling back then...

Walked away

She realized he walked away 

from their 'truth' 

a long time ago 
struggling to negate 

every aspect of them possible..
which painfully left shadows 

that they needed to avoid.. 
that they were unable to face.. 
while she still searched.. and still hurt..
in glimpses of that shadow.. 
afraid so afraid to look into his eyes..
As he avoided her eyes 

She avoided the mirror.. 
a very sensitive person 

who would not voluntarily hurt anyone 
and yet he looked away 

and it made her go cold.. 

They were too precious to let go.. 

They were too precious to hold on this way..

Ethereal glow

sometimes i wonder at this light that pierces my soul.. 

resonating the chords of my love.. 

my heart opens.. emotions running wild.. 

divinity bathing me in its ethereal glow..

Intense ache

He spoke of weight or looks with her.. 

the one she loved so much.. 

She could feel it within her all the time 

both with an intense ache and joy 

and that's how She saw him, 

that's what he meant to her, 

everything beautiful and wonderful, 

nothing  else stood in comparison. 

could anything be more beautiful 

than the love he gave her 

or the love She felt for him, 

She looked at him and saw 

the most wonderful person 

in the world, 

one she adored and worshipped.. 

who affected her so deeply, 

way beyond her comprehension.. 

try looking at yourself with my eyes 

She urged

and you'll see only perfection 

shining through a blinding, 

dazzling light of love...