Numbed your soul

and life teaches you so many things.. and you forget who you are.. 
so many steps to follow.. 
you forget there is one of your own 
and you know you meant something.. and you feel the disquiet all along 
the search doesn't end 
for you only look to follow.. 
yes, there is a meaning.. 
the search comes too late.. 
these bonds, this money, these worries
stop making any sense 
a sheer waste of you, yourself.. 
you question where you numbed your soul 
stopped feeling back then...