Breathing magic

if you want me to go by feeling then admiration is uppermost now

Along with this intense wish to will you to write always

it's like there's no stopping this flow of words

now that you've finally touched on this portion

of your heart that had left an invisible vacuum

unfelt... unrealized.. incomplete

an emptiness.. an exhaustive urge

that needs filling up

to realize something within yourself

help you reach higher delve deeper

filling up so many unknown dark corners

with this glowing satiating light

words and thoughts and feelings

are just gushing forth in a torrent of emotions 

uncontained - breathing beauty and magic all around

Shout with joy

such a feeling has come over her.. 

She feels blessed.. 

such warmth so much love.. 

only he can give her .. so selflessly

She feels cherished and needed.. 

Her life has a meaning 

if momentary.. 

let it be a dream 

let it be fleeting.. 

even for a moment 

She held it to herself.. 

doesn't know about hearts.. 

doesn't know about love.. 

She just knows she has this feeling

oh! what a mystery.. 

She smiles in her dreams.. 

She smiles when awake.. 

She laughs for no reason.. 

what's happened to her..

Her step has a skip.. 

Her eyes have a shine.. 

Her lips have a song.. 

of happiness only.. 

She doesn't know who to tell 

She doesn't know what to say.. 

She just wants to cherish it.. 

somewhere deep within her.. 

She likes the stars.. 

She likes the sky

She likes the wind.. 

She likes the rain.. 

She likes everything 

God has made.. 

She wants to shout with joy.. 

just for a moment

Wanting him to hold her.. 

His hands in her hair.. 

her head to his heart.. 

nothing sweeter can there be

than that beating of his heart.. 

there are tears in her eyes.. 

Her heart's overflowing with joy

this feeling of coming home.. 

only his arms could provide....

Never less sweet

what was it that tugged at my heartstrings

your words or the emotion behind them

was it such a reflection I could feel the words

was it a silent recognition

an unspoken message our hearts understood

they beat as one the ones who knew

just waiting for the day

they'd recognize the beat

though it might be late

but never less sweet....

Soundless scream

the perpetual soundless scream all around us.. unheard! if it attained sound.. where would we all be

the world would go deaf.. but -  soundless too; isn't it falling on deaf ears

the pleading eyes.. the clamoring thoughts.. please.... pay heed

who knows what havoc it's going to wreak.. or pass into eternity

will an echo be left behind… wait.... someone's listening

there's hope still?.. that echo might survive.. like a key...... maybe!

Illusive reality

it feels so innocent.. this feeling in my heart.. its this that lends so much purity

and poetry to everything.. enhances everything so much.. makes it so achingly wondrously beautiful

words form themselves.. swirl surreally around this room.. around this life

reality hangs suspended  in limbo

shimmering fading illusive reality.. consuming with each feeling..emotion.. painful realizations hauntingly felt.. echoing need creeping in unawares.. disquieting unnamed empathy.. forgiving ineffectual elusive.. recriminations obsessive hurting..defeating chimeric.. can the forgiveness ever be complete.. 

Why do i fly

sometimes i see life in the palm of my hand and it stares back alive and i wonder why it feels so strange 

is it really mine to hold or does it hold me in it's palm which as i struggle to look around

half opens and i shrink back into the darkness..dazzled by this dance of shadow and light

tentatively i reach out for the shadows.. fascinated, finding relief in it's 'familiar' folds

terrified of the light alien, strange, unknown.. till one day i slip and the palm opens

a little more and i feel the light.. scared to open my eyes.. cursing the fates to let this happen

missing the shadows.. the haven i had made.. i wait for that blow and lightning strikes

and the palm opens.. what is this freedom why do i fly

Primitivity within

to know you fully
not just body but mind heart and soul
to touch the real person behind all
these unnecessary masks we put on
favoring each relationship
facades more acceptable
because of welcomed urbanity
so scared to unleash or accept
the primitivity within
i wish to live in that portion 
of yourself which no one has ever touched before.. loving all of you.. just the way you are.

Forgive and forget

i want you to know i can feel the pain the disillusionment fear loneliness anger hurt and the unuttered protest. we all want to lash back at people when something unfair happens, and we would be pretty much justified too. we are all very special, each one a unique person, and nothin can change that fact. it is not always easy to forgive and forget but love and compassion give us the understanding we need to help us forgive our loved ones, because if we don't , something which is deep, an integral part of us also dies. in a way we are doing the very thing we felt hurt about and that is holding back our love or alienating our loved one and you know how much that hurts. life stinks sometimes, maybe more than sometimes, but since we can never change the past and we have such a limited time with us we must make a fantastic future.I know you don't want to talk about it any more but I had to let you know how I feel. I do understand and don't think there is any need to feel guilty about the anger either.. we're fully entitled to it.. some wounds never heal, they go in too deep and have hurt too badly. nothing can fill that kind of a void only understanding and the will to forgive and forget might help a bit of the healing not to say a lifetime of loving. you deserve to be loved unreservedly, you are a very special person.

Meaning

meaning is not something we stumble over like a bolt of lightning in sudden enlightenment or by walking a certain path.. meaning is something we weave into our lives every step of the way each finding something unique and true for themselves. a universal truth that belongs to each heart in as special and unique manner as each individual himself is..

Shards of confusion

sanity splinters into shards of confusion
as the self and resolve disintegrate
clusters of groups i see
in an ever-widening circle
of numbed serenity
ingratiatingly digging their own space
waiting in blinkered supine ecstasy
for a handful of earth
stepping into this maze 

we try to find the right path
till tired zombie-like we sit and wait

Lips of eternity

the only way to feel God 
is to love another blindly unconditionally 
totally forgetting yourself.. 
lost in the god  in another 
feeling your own merge 
in this divine union 
that fills you with aching joy 
as you reach within and touch Him soaring on wings of freedom 
the music of heartbeats 
of life itself resounding the silences.. with rippling strains 
on lips of eternity.. 

Ever-changing worlds

The hills joined by undefined cities suspended far over the horizon

Puffs of clouds shining in their moment of light till the breeze cajoles a new face

Who is this architect, this painter, 

this musician in the sky.. 

Constructing ever-changing worlds with a palette of infinite colours stringing notes of love every moment

Cottony patterns

It is So beautiful outside.. 

The flowers vibrant splashes of color that light up.. 

Uplift my heart each time.. 

The breeze romancing my skin.. 

The sea beckoning with its vast embrace.. 

the birds incessantly frolicking 

making teasing sounds of incomprehensive mirth.. 

and the sky.. blue so blue.. 

dazzling with muted light 

as clouds form cottony patterns 

of constantly changing designs.. 

and i smile eyes vying wih my heart 

to imbibe this ethereal gift 

nature bestows afresh..

Transcience

every moment i can feel 

the door ajar.. 

a tentative step, 

hesitant scared.. 

this transience.. 

i shut my eyes 

to feel consumed 

with the flame of love..

Toeing the line

thinking of a lifetime ahead of us we worry over situations and the future.. giving up on these few precious moments of happiness, that might be all we have.. if we could just put everything in 'ourselves'.. into each heartbeat, where would the room for any regrets be.. and make our  loved ones feel so special, each moment, just like the feeling in our hearts, instead of making occasions, priority lists and toeing the line..